When All Stars Align...

There are times when things seem to stand still, and whether you push or shove, cry or scream, nothing happens, as if you are pushing a 10-ton rock. Unless you are defeated by life, you still need to endure it and push forward no matter what, but your mind still wander to the dark places once in a while; the fear, desperation, and hopelessness.

Even in your darkest hours, you know you need to fight and try to push forward, believing that there comes a time when things will fall into places, and bad time will end somehow. You also tell yourself that nothing will happen unless you try, so you keep on trying, without any results or positive outlook.

It may sound superstitious, even fatalistic, but I do believe in cycle of luck. There are times when things just happen, when things are easy, when periods are shiny and bright, that arrive after those dark times. Whether it is affected by the constellations or birth charts, these cycles are the fact of life, and in the past two years that I count as one of my darkest years, I blindly believed in the time to come, "when all starts align", according to the horoscopes, when I could finally get out of the bad cycle.

The great news is, I am finally seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. I can feel the weights on my shoulders lifted little by little over the past few weeks, and for the first time in few years, I am starting to feel hopeful, to the point that I could look forward to the future, believing that "the best is yet to come".